YOUR MERCIES I SEE

If You were to judge me on a daily,
I would fail consistently,
If You struck at the heat of all sins,
I would be without a pulse,
If You turned Your back at my every iniquity,
I would be the devils dinner,
If You prosecuted as I faltered,
I would lose every case,
If You loved me by my deeds,
I would have been Your ex,
If You left me to myself,
I would miss it repeatedly,
Thank You for blotting out my sins,
Erasing it with every morning,
I am sorry for my weaknesses,
Bless You for Your strength in me.

MY POTTER

The clay in Your hand,
In Your mind a picture rears,
Clear and concise,
Detailed to the letter,
You begin to mix and mould,
With every stroke, You perfect,
Blemishes You correct,
Unwanted elements You remove,
You compare with the image in Your minds eye,
You step back and look,
More clay,
A squirt of water,
A flaw won’t correct,
You dissolve all of it and start again,
Patiently You craft,
Almost doesn’t count,
As You saw,
As You intended,
So it shall be,
A masterpiece You purposed,
A chef-d’oeurve I’ll be.

SEARCHING FOR WHAT I ALREADY HAVE

My thoughts are truly pedestrian,
Here I am standing in Your throne room,
I can see the splendor,
Your presence is heavy in the atmosphere,
Pleading my case I intend,
My heart can be measured in tonnes,
I bleed through my eyes,
I clear my throat in a bid to start,
My chin touching my chest,
I dare to look up,
What I see puzzles me,
That radiant smile,
You seem pleased to have me before You,
I realize that what bothers me doesn’t move You,
You have had the likes of me stand before You often,
For thousand of years actually,
You say, before I prayed it, You did it,
That Your plans are beyond my challenges,
That for every travail, You had a reason,
For every heartache, You were working,
For every brick wall, You were redirecting,
Some things had to occur so I’ll seek You,
Others presented an opportunity to showcase Your supremacy,
So now all of it has brought me were You wanted me,
At Your feet,
All you want is already in your destiny, You say,
All I want is your fellowship,
Your life is perfected when we are best of friends,
Then I realized how I’d been chasing my own tail,
All I’ll ever need flows out from intimacy with You,
Thanks pal.

YOUR SILENCE

Sometimes its like You have zoned out on me,
Can hear the cricket in the alley,
but I can’t hear my greatest Ally,
I can feel Your breathe on my cheek,
My ears strain,
My being stills,
I hear only my hearts rhythm,
Your presence is a certainty,
I know Your voice well enough,
Yet You won’t verbalize,
Does there need to be words every time will frolic?
Isn’t Your silence fellowship in itself?
Its Good to know that You are here,
Enjoying just being around me,
Lovers communicating,
Word or not its comforting knowing You are near.

A PAWN IN GODS HANDS

Everyday, incessantly in many ways you try to bring me down,
It kills you to see me in sync,
Throwing anything and everything at me,
Causing temporary distractions,
Playing tricks on my mind,
Using even the closest to my core,
You are relentless,
Inventing new stuff just to get me in a rut,
Your quiver of arrows don’t faze me,
My Shield intact,
You don’t get it do you?
I belong to Someone else,
The One who turns what you meant for evil into good,
Nothing happens unless He allows it,
So I know better,
By default you work for Him to best me,
You are pawn in my Fathers hands.

ON WHAT FREQUENCY SHOULD I LOVE

You’ve said to love You,
Love my neighbor, as myself,
You sealed it with;
Loving like You have loved me,
Now that got me thinking,
It had me searching,
How have You loved me?
You sacrificed,
You gave,
You save,
You paved,
You bled,
You died,
You advocate,
All for me,
Even when I was unlovable,
Even when I didn’t love You back,
This couldn’t have been easy,
So this is the kind of loving You require of me,
That I take this to the streets,
That I love everyone in this manner,
That I love like You.

I KNOW YOU

Shouldn’t I know You by now?
Your principles and patterns are unfazed,
Two dots apart, where will you start the line from today?
Author and Finisher, but in between You reinvent Yourself,
Alpha and Omega! Impressive! Yet You take time to laugh with me,
How can I know the end is bliss and yet fuss about the web spinning?
Predictable yet at the end my jaw drops and I drool shamelessly,
I Can honestly picture You laughing, at my reactions,
Gotcha!
Shepard and the Lamb, how? Multifaceted, Multitasking personified,
The King of kings is my bosom friend!!
You never give up on me, even when I think You should,
Talk about persistence in love,
You must see things I can’t,
Show me,
Spiritual muscles, You help me work on my abs,
Why do You need me in top shape?
For Your glory, right?
Typical of You, giving me answers in my questions,
Humor me, what is Your favorite day of the week?
Sundays or Wednesdays?
When can’t You help but do the ‘electric slide’
What prompts butterflies in stomach?
What gets You grinning like a toothless two year old?
Cos those are things I will focus on,
I want to please You,
For once, let me tend to You,
Ask of me anything God,
Got You smiling, ha!
You just made my day.

MY FLAWS,YOUR PLANS

I’m curious Lord,
My flaws, the mistakes I’ve made over the years,
Did you know they were all going to happen?
Are they a part of my destiny from inception?
Sketched into my blue prints,
Are there more to come?
Can I even try to evade them?
I know there is no changing Your initial encryption,
Your works are cast on Your Spirit,
Which temptations did You know I’ll beat and which I won’t?
Did you laugh at me or did I bring tears to Your eyes?
I seem to have loads of questions needing answers,
Where is the edge of the cliff for You?
When Your hands get too slippery and Your grasp does loosen?
Do You ever give up?
Is ‘the end’ in Your vocabulary?
Don’t ever go quiet on me Father,
Never sever the cord that joins us,
Death becomes me when You are not near,
Absent minded,
Not a care in the world,
Myopic,
I want to live everyday for You,
I want to conquer only with You,
My success has to be Yours,
I forge only because You allow it,
I survive only because You cushion,
I can, because You have.

UMBILICAL

Increasingly, clearly, consistently I find that with every stride that I by myself I’m nothing, utter crap without You,
Rudderless, unintelligent, spineless, scared without You,
There is so much to do, to be, to have but without You my being rattles, not daring to mutter a breath,
I want to follow only You,
Its You only I can trust
You are the only one with tested results
Embrace me, show me, assure me, direct me, tutor me, equip me, qualify me for the purpose You have engineered into me before day 1.

YOUR PRESENCE

My spine buckles when I’m outside Your presence,
I’m comfortable crying only in Your Presence,
Thoughts of You brings me into Your presence,
A glimpse of the future, a beauty to behold only in Your presence,
My greatest life goal is to come to a place where I’m perpetually in Your presence.