I’m curious Lord,
My flaws, the mistakes I’ve made over the years,
Did you know they were all going to happen?
Are they a part of my destiny from inception?
Sketched into my blue prints,
Are there more to come?
Can I even try to evade them?
I know there is no changing Your initial encryption,
Your works are cast on Your Spirit,
Which temptations did You know I’ll beat and which I won’t?
Did you laugh at me or did I bring tears to Your eyes?
I seem to have loads of questions needing answers,
Where is the edge of the cliff for You?
When Your hands get too slippery and Your grasp does loosen?
Do You ever give up?
Is ‘the end’ in Your vocabulary?
Don’t ever go quiet on me Father,
Never sever the cord that joins us,
Death becomes me when You are not near,
Not a care in the world,
I want to live everyday for You,
I want to conquer only with You,
My success has to be Yours,
I forge only because You allow it,
I survive only because You cushion,
I can, because You have.